Altering Dreams

 Sunday August 11, 2024  It has been a long while. I meant for today to be a no tech day, but here we are.  Started this morning better than most days, managed to do some unpacking in the kitchen and try to write some morning pages.  I think maybe the days that I purposely try to limit tech are the ones that end up being more productive, and when I say productive, I mean in a healthily get something done and move forward with life way as opposed to the overwork kind of a way.  At the moment I'm in the midst of job hunting and wondering what the possibilities are and kinda worried that they might not exist as I hope them to. I'm not sure if it's that I'm not being patient enough, (it's been about a week or so), or that I'm sad inside from lots of things, or that I'm feeling the lack of having a close community physically around me. It feels ironic to want to be able to cry with someone there, knowing that if someone were there, you probably wouldn't cry c